You don't know anything about me...."
So, my best friend:
Kassidy Bowen
Went into the hospital recently to get her appendix out [Best wishes for her!], and me and my other friend went out there to see her. Of course, my friend had to stay with her for about 3 hours, just them, before I got to go. She didn't even come to pick me up- she sent her father. JUST her father. Who does that?
Either way, so my and her father have this lovely conversation about her and what do ya know?
She a compulsive liar!
GRRR!!
This girl used to be my best friend. And I'm sitting her, telling her father everything she's ever told me and he's saying: "No, that's not what happened. No I didn't say that. No she did that."
Blah Blah Blah.
WHAT THE--?!
So I get to the hospital, and I have to pretend I don't hate her from the inside out. And I smile and talk to my dear Juliette like nothing is wrong. Even though I want to punch the little priss in the face. And I just act my way through it.
The entire time we're there, she did the same thing she always does.
I state something.
She tells me why I'm wrong.
"You'll be out tomorrow, I'm sure!"
"No she won't. My brother was here for 2 weeks." [She got out the next day.]
Then, after being with her for 6 hours STRAIGHT, she says, "We should leave, I want her to rest."
She was there for SIX F'ING HOURS. I was there for ONE.
My thoughts were like: 'I hate you. I hate you. I hate you...' I had to compact all my feelings until I got home where I wrote her a very angry and hurt letter.
"Dear Susanna,
There is always a time and place. Always a moment in time. But somethings don't fit together, no matter how much you force them. After a long conversation with your father have have grown tired. I'm afraid that I cannot just keep doing this. I've come to the conclusion that I can not continue to be anything more than kind strangers. You and I are puzzle pieces that do not belong together. It seems like we are constantly disagreeing and getting in small pointless disputes over stupid things. We never see eye to eye are our personalities are completely opposite. The sad truth is opposites really do not attract. We have this constant friction going on between us. Almost like we're trying to beat out each other. And I don't want to live like that. I don't want to have a friendship that is carried on through stupid arguments and disagreeing. We both always want to be right- it's human nature. However, you and I are much more persistent about it. I just don't think I can contain myself much more. I have a temper with you that I never have with anyone else. Sometimes the things you say and do I absolutely hate. That doesn't mean you are in the wrong- I just have a strange temper with you.
I sometimes feel like you are rarely honest with me. I am not sure how to put that kindly, but I mean it in the best of ways. I just feel like our relationship is a constant debate team. Like the things you say and the facts you try to prove have no meaning in the end but a feeling of egoism against me. I may be twisting things- but no one likes to feel that way. We've tried so many times to fix our relationship and it's just not working. I don't believe it can be fixed anymore. We have different opinions, views, lifestyles, friends, habits, and personalities. You are almost the complete and opposite of me. It's just not going to fly anymore.
Don't think this is easy for me. It isn't. I hate it. I don't want to admit it is going to work. I don't like admitting that we don't fix each other. We completely rebel against each other. It needs to change. For the good of both of us. I'm sorry. I just think we've changed so much that it's not even worth trying to fix. It's not even worth attempting. It's sad that your father had me realize this. I just don't want to hear excuses anymore.
I'm sorry.
Lie to me once, shame on you.
Lie to me twice, shame on me.
Jennifer"
The little bee-yotch had the AUDACITY to say:
"I can't believe you when you say that you don't like to tell me all of this...it seems like so much of what you have written like how we are opposites have different lifestyles and friends and such are all your own excuses, even if you don't even know it. If you truly just don't like me there was no need for you to have to write such a letter. To tell me such a thing has come from a conversation with my father shows me the truth. No matter what the conversation was about or included. To think that because of it you realized your disdain for me tells me that you must have been harboring these feelings for longer than you say. And to tell you the truth to have you say that this friendship isn't even worth attempting to fix also shows me your hate. And i know that you are not at blame, i am sorry that we have wasted so many years when in the end you feel this way. I truly hope that everything works out for you."
She also played the: "Oh, poor me~ Someone help me off my throne~" Card....
"As far as the constant battles and debates between us go I understand and i see what you mean but honestly I try to debate with you to feel equal not superior, and i am sorry that i may have been pushing it to far but face it, you have more friends, you are more confident, you have plans, you are a 'queen bee' in a way, you are prettier and you are overall more fit for this world. I am simply here as a visitor trying to fit in, but i just don't, perhaps God put me here as a test subject to see if i could force myself into the crowd or perhaps i am not even supposed to be here at all, but obviously my attempts to equalize myself have made you feel lower."
I just can't believe her anymore....
Who can blame me? I feel cheated, hurt, and disrespected.
Either way, back to my point.
The little girl has spent every single second of her free time with Kasper.
How on EARTH am I supposed to get to her? How am I supposed to be able to squeeze in some alone time. I definitely DO NOT what Susi there. No way. No how.
I had made plans with her last Friday....
Drama got in the way.
I have built up so much hate.
I DO NOT like being LIED to.
DO NOT.
Especially when she said just second before I found out the lies:
"I would never hurt you. You mean so much to me. Thanks for being my friend! I love you!"
...
I don't like to hate....
But is that what I am feeling?
Kassidy Bowen
Went into the hospital recently to get her appendix out [Best wishes for her!], and me and my other friend went out there to see her. Of course, my friend had to stay with her for about 3 hours, just them, before I got to go. She didn't even come to pick me up- she sent her father. JUST her father. Who does that?
Either way, so my and her father have this lovely conversation about her and what do ya know?
She a compulsive liar!
GRRR!!
This girl used to be my best friend. And I'm sitting her, telling her father everything she's ever told me and he's saying: "No, that's not what happened. No I didn't say that. No she did that."
Blah Blah Blah.
WHAT THE--?!
So I get to the hospital, and I have to pretend I don't hate her from the inside out. And I smile and talk to my dear Juliette like nothing is wrong. Even though I want to punch the little priss in the face. And I just act my way through it.
The entire time we're there, she did the same thing she always does.
I state something.
She tells me why I'm wrong.
"You'll be out tomorrow, I'm sure!"
"No she won't. My brother was here for 2 weeks." [She got out the next day.]
Then, after being with her for 6 hours STRAIGHT, she says, "We should leave, I want her to rest."
She was there for SIX F'ING HOURS. I was there for ONE.
My thoughts were like: 'I hate you. I hate you. I hate you...' I had to compact all my feelings until I got home where I wrote her a very angry and hurt letter.
"Dear Susanna,
There is always a time and place. Always a moment in time. But somethings don't fit together, no matter how much you force them. After a long conversation with your father have have grown tired. I'm afraid that I cannot just keep doing this. I've come to the conclusion that I can not continue to be anything more than kind strangers. You and I are puzzle pieces that do not belong together. It seems like we are constantly disagreeing and getting in small pointless disputes over stupid things. We never see eye to eye are our personalities are completely opposite. The sad truth is opposites really do not attract. We have this constant friction going on between us. Almost like we're trying to beat out each other. And I don't want to live like that. I don't want to have a friendship that is carried on through stupid arguments and disagreeing. We both always want to be right- it's human nature. However, you and I are much more persistent about it. I just don't think I can contain myself much more. I have a temper with you that I never have with anyone else. Sometimes the things you say and do I absolutely hate. That doesn't mean you are in the wrong- I just have a strange temper with you.
I sometimes feel like you are rarely honest with me. I am not sure how to put that kindly, but I mean it in the best of ways. I just feel like our relationship is a constant debate team. Like the things you say and the facts you try to prove have no meaning in the end but a feeling of egoism against me. I may be twisting things- but no one likes to feel that way. We've tried so many times to fix our relationship and it's just not working. I don't believe it can be fixed anymore. We have different opinions, views, lifestyles, friends, habits, and personalities. You are almost the complete and opposite of me. It's just not going to fly anymore.
Don't think this is easy for me. It isn't. I hate it. I don't want to admit it is going to work. I don't like admitting that we don't fix each other. We completely rebel against each other. It needs to change. For the good of both of us. I'm sorry. I just think we've changed so much that it's not even worth trying to fix. It's not even worth attempting. It's sad that your father had me realize this. I just don't want to hear excuses anymore.
I'm sorry.
Lie to me once, shame on you.
Lie to me twice, shame on me.
Jennifer"
The little bee-yotch had the AUDACITY to say:
"I can't believe you when you say that you don't like to tell me all of this...it seems like so much of what you have written like how we are opposites have different lifestyles and friends and such are all your own excuses, even if you don't even know it. If you truly just don't like me there was no need for you to have to write such a letter. To tell me such a thing has come from a conversation with my father shows me the truth. No matter what the conversation was about or included. To think that because of it you realized your disdain for me tells me that you must have been harboring these feelings for longer than you say. And to tell you the truth to have you say that this friendship isn't even worth attempting to fix also shows me your hate. And i know that you are not at blame, i am sorry that we have wasted so many years when in the end you feel this way. I truly hope that everything works out for you."
She also played the: "Oh, poor me~ Someone help me off my throne~" Card....
"As far as the constant battles and debates between us go I understand and i see what you mean but honestly I try to debate with you to feel equal not superior, and i am sorry that i may have been pushing it to far but face it, you have more friends, you are more confident, you have plans, you are a 'queen bee' in a way, you are prettier and you are overall more fit for this world. I am simply here as a visitor trying to fit in, but i just don't, perhaps God put me here as a test subject to see if i could force myself into the crowd or perhaps i am not even supposed to be here at all, but obviously my attempts to equalize myself have made you feel lower."
I just can't believe her anymore....
Who can blame me? I feel cheated, hurt, and disrespected.
Either way, back to my point.
The little girl has spent every single second of her free time with Kasper.
How on EARTH am I supposed to get to her? How am I supposed to be able to squeeze in some alone time. I definitely DO NOT what Susi there. No way. No how.
I had made plans with her last Friday....
Drama got in the way.
I have built up so much hate.
I DO NOT like being LIED to.
DO NOT.
Especially when she said just second before I found out the lies:
"I would never hurt you. You mean so much to me. Thanks for being my friend! I love you!"
...
I don't like to hate....
But is that what I am feeling?
