DAY TWO OF GIVING UP NINPOCHO.
Second day without Ninpocho. In order to keep my sanity from not being able to RP or write in general, I'm going to be blogging about my feelings day after day without my vital entertainment. Second day, I'm having strange urges to do household things I normally try to avoid such as: Laundry; Dishes; Cleaning my room; and Cooking. I've been listening to a lot of music, drawing, and texting. Mostly laying around and not doing much with my time- basically wasting it in any way possible. Nothing really healthy yet.
My goal is to start working out as an entertainment activities. Learning Buono! dances and such. I'm missing the overall experience as a whole. Withdraws are painful. Urges to break my own rules and go back- but still standing! Fighting through the pain! Though, it's not the most comfortable thing.
When school picks up, I suspect it will get easier. Especially when Drama comes back into play [lol pun]. Either way, finding as many random reasons to write, though it's not as fun by myself. Attempting to think of people I know in person that I can write with, and failing. I don't know enough good writers! D: Shame, really. I even considered Mr. Slotegraaf. Which, would be too weird, so I decided against it.
RPing is a rare thing in Hart. Not many people really appreciate it as much as I do, so I seem to be at a loss overall. Hard to deal with, seeing how RPing was a part of my life for just about 4 years. Which, is a LONG time to be doing the same habits day after day. Perhaps this will be healthier for me. Maybe not? Who knows.
-Still Alive
