Conflicts, Heartbreak, and Envy

"You don't know my name.

You don't know anything about me...."

So, my best friend:

Kassidy Bowen

Went into the hospital recently to get her appendix out [Best wishes for her!], and me and my other friend went out there to see her. Of course, my friend had to stay with her for about 3 hours, just them, before I got to go. She didn't even come to pick me up- she sent her father. JUST her father. Who does that?

Either way, so my and her father have this lovely conversation about her and what do ya know?

She a compulsive liar!

GRRR!!

This girl used to be my best friend. And I'm sitting her, telling her father everything she's ever told me and he's saying: "No, that's not what happened. No I didn't say that. No she did that."

Blah Blah Blah.

WHAT THE--?!

So I get to the hospital, and I have to pretend I don't hate her from the inside out. And I smile and talk to my dear Juliette like nothing is wrong. Even though I want to punch the little priss in the face. And I just act my way through it.

The entire time we're there, she did the same thing she always does.

I state something.
She tells me why I'm wrong.

"You'll be out tomorrow, I'm sure!"
"No she won't. My brother was here for 2 weeks." [She got out the next day.]

Then, after being with her for 6 hours STRAIGHT, she says, "We should leave, I want her to rest."

She was there for SIX F'ING HOURS. I was there for ONE.

My thoughts were like: 'I hate you. I hate you. I hate you...' I had to compact all my feelings until I got home where I wrote her a very angry and hurt letter.


"Dear Susanna,

There is always a time and place. Always a moment in time. But somethings don't fit together, no matter how much you force them. After a long conversation with your father have have grown tired. I'm afraid that I cannot just keep doing this. I've come to the conclusion that I can not continue to be anything more than kind strangers. You and I are puzzle pieces that do not belong together. It seems like we are constantly disagreeing and getting in small pointless disputes over stupid things. We never see eye to eye are our personalities are completely opposite. The sad truth is opposites really do not attract. We have this constant friction going on between us. Almost like we're trying to beat out each other. And I don't want to live like that. I don't want to have a friendship that is carried on through stupid arguments and disagreeing. We both always want to be right- it's human nature. However, you and I are much more persistent about it. I just don't think I can contain myself much more. I have a temper with you that I never have with anyone else. Sometimes the things you say and do I absolutely hate. That doesn't mean you are in the wrong- I just have a strange temper with you.

I sometimes feel like you are rarely honest with me. I am not sure how to put that kindly, but I mean it in the best of ways. I just feel like our relationship is a constant debate team. Like the things you say and the facts you try to prove have no meaning in the end but a feeling of egoism against me. I may be twisting things- but no one likes to feel that way. We've tried so many times to fix our relationship and it's just not working. I don't believe it can be fixed anymore. We have different opinions, views, lifestyles, friends, habits, and personalities. You are almost the complete and opposite of me. It's just not going to fly anymore.

Don't think this is easy for me. It isn't. I hate it. I don't want to admit it is going to work. I don't like admitting that we don't fix each other. We completely rebel against each other. It needs to change. For the good of both of us. I'm sorry. I just think we've changed so much that it's not even worth trying to fix. It's not even worth attempting. It's sad that your father had me realize this. I just don't want to hear excuses anymore.

I'm sorry.

Lie to me once, shame on you.
Lie to me twice, shame on me.

Jennifer"

The little bee-yotch had the AUDACITY to say:

"I can't believe you when you say that you don't like to tell me all of this...it seems like so much of what you have written like how we are opposites have different lifestyles and friends and such are all your own excuses, even if you don't even know it. If you truly just don't like me there was no need for you to have to write such a letter. To tell me such a thing has come from a conversation with my father shows me the truth. No matter what the conversation was about or included. To think that because of it you realized your disdain for me tells me that you must have been harboring these feelings for longer than you say. And to tell you the truth to have you say that this friendship isn't even worth attempting to fix also shows me your hate. And i know that you are not at blame, i am sorry that we have wasted so many years when in the end you feel this way. I truly hope that everything works out for you."

She also played the: "Oh, poor me~ Someone help me off my throne~" Card....

"As far as the constant battles and debates between us go I understand and i see what you mean but honestly I try to debate with you to feel equal not superior, and i am sorry that i may have been pushing it to far but face it, you have more friends, you are more confident, you have plans, you are a 'queen bee' in a way, you are prettier and you are overall more fit for this world. I am simply here as a visitor trying to fit in, but i just don't, perhaps God put me here as a test subject to see if i could force myself into the crowd or perhaps i am not even supposed to be here at all, but obviously my attempts to equalize myself have made you feel lower."

I just can't believe her anymore....

Who can blame me? I feel cheated, hurt, and disrespected.

Either way, back to my point.
The little girl has spent every single second of her free time with Kasper.
How on EARTH am I supposed to get to her? How am I supposed to be able to squeeze in some alone time. I definitely DO NOT what Susi there. No way. No how.

I had made plans with her last Friday....
Drama got in the way.

I have built up so much hate.
I DO NOT like being LIED to.
DO NOT.

Especially when she said just second before I found out the lies:
"I would never hurt you. You mean so much to me. Thanks for being my friend! I love you!"

...

I don't like to hate....

But is that what I am feeling?

Artistic Doodles~

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A little Love...

Giving up doesn't always mean you are weak; sometimes it means that you are strong enough to let go. ~Author Unknown

God is closest to those with broken hearts. ~Jewish Saying

Sometimes, when one person is missing, the whole world seems depopulated. ~Lamartine

When love is lost, do not bow your head in sadness; instead keep your head up high and gaze into heaven for that is where your broken heart has been sent to heal. ~Author Unknown

The best way to mend a broken heart is time and girlfriends. ~Gwyneth Paltrow

I don't know why they call it heartbreak. It feels like every other part of my body is broken too. ~Missy Altijd

In the arithmetic of love, one plus one equals everything, and two minus one equals nothing. ~Mignon McLaughlin, The Second Neurotic's Notebook, 1966

Relationships are like glass. Sometimes it's better to leave them broken than try to hurt yourself putting it back together. ~Author Unknown

Love is like a puzzle. When you're in love, all the pieces fit but when your heart gets broken, it takes a while to get everything back together. ~Author Unknown

You flew off with the wings of my heart and left me flightless. ~Stelle Atwater

Maybe part of loving is learning to let go. ~From the television show The Wonder Years

I prithee send me back my heart,

Since I cannot have thine;

For if from yours you will not part,

Why, then, shouldst thou have mine? ~John Suckling

It's a Slow life....

Alright...life is pretty slow right now...not doing much, but I just found some pictures from my violin recital so there they are.

Single...

Short-lived, eh? Well, Ryan and I did, in fact, break up. We both still REALLY like each other, but he thought we went to fast (I believe we went to slow...). He thought we should get to know each other a little better. (Maybe he was like Doug and just didn't like me anymore...) Anywho, he still wants to be friends. So...that's nice...I guess... I've been having dreams about him all the time now.... So...here we go:
Well...

First one:

We were actually on a date at his house (which, oddly enough, I've never actually been to) and we went swimming and we picked up seashells on the beach, watched the sunset, walked to the pier laughed and talked the entire time it was so real...

Second~

Kay we were in the MAGICAL hogwarts like place XD This one was totally unreal XD And we were playing cards and then it started pouring and the floor suddenly turned into an ocean and it became really dark and stopped raining and I made a canoe appear and we both got in it and we went around on the boat just talking and laughing
the end. XD

Last one:

this one is more of a nightmare... =(
it was the first day at this highschool I've dreamed about this highschool MILLIONS of times and Ryan was going to this school to. XD But anyways As we were going in I accidently bumped into him and he turned and glared at me then as we were in I tripped and grabbed his arm and he shook me off and walked away (holy heart breaking) then we registered and he was gone and we went in for breakfast and there was this b-tch there who kept saying I was an idiot after I beat the h-ll out of her I sat down alone at a single booth (yeah there were booths instead of tables) and I looked at the menu (yeah A menu..XD) I saw Ryan with that Autumn chick next to my booth and they talked and laughed and all that crap and then she bumped her leg against his and they entwined legs

Kyler said:
it sounds like to me your mind is showing three sides of ryan...the 1st one showed a lovey dovey ryan, the 2nd one showed a ryan that seemed more like a friend, and the 3rd dream showed him as a complete jerk....i think your mind wants you to get rid of him...but your heart wants to stay beside him...

Well...my life is complicated, but:
"Everything gets better in the end. If it's not better, it's not the end."
Speaking of quotes! I have a nifty one right here:

~"I'm not supposed to love you, I'm not supposed to care, I'm not supposed to live my life wishing you were there. I'm not supposed to wonder where you are or what you're doing, but I can't help it, cause I'm in love with you."

I made Kyler a blog today...=P It's cool, and I am totally proud of myself~
www.thebrainofkyler.blogspot.com
check out my work!
Welp, that's it! See ya later! <3

Freshmen!

I am a FRESHMAN! Yes! I have become FRESHMEN SCUM!! Now, why is that a good thing? Well, I am one step closer to becoming my dream! A lot has happened since I last posted on here! Well, at the moment I have started a relationship with the oh-so-amazing cello player in my intermediate orchestra.. =) Ryan, the boy, is so sweet and talented!
I passed ALL my final exams to get out of eighth grade! YAY! I get a high school credit in Physical Science too! Next year I take SUPER easy classes! So I'm totally excited! I want Mr. Ramirez for a teacher next year~ In my yearbook Mr. Kirk wrote, "See you next fall!". Because he's retiring, you know what that means? PROMISED spot in HIGH SCHOOL theater! YAY!
I've also been inspired by Ryan to take dance classes. I wish to take ballroom....
Um...what was I going to type...?
Oh right! I've been drawing again! So those drawings are going to go up as soon as I get home! (I'm babysitting right now...)
I'll see you all LATER! :D Hopefully I'll update this more often~
BAII-BAII!
~Jennifer Walker

At the Library

Well, I'm at the library right now after finishing my Poe Biography, and I had some time to spare. No homework or anyting...so here I am. Well all of my friends (Amber Croff, Alex Woodbury, Kyler McQuestion) are all here and ironically all going home at 4:30pm just like I am. So Kyler is next to me on the computer right now, and it's kinda funny.

Kyler is awesome. My best friend I guess you could say. My drama buddy. Lol. Now he's reading it...<_<... So....yeah. This blog thing is HARD to remember to write in. The HAPL is the only place I really remember all the time to write it in. I wish we could IM though. It would make it much cooler, but....we can't...

I saw Susi today again. I missed her so much...

Math- Ruined my day. Talk about BORING!

Science- I did all the work on a Lab Experiement

Reading- Was fun, like always.

English- The .

US History- Kinda boring today, but I still love it.

Band- Same ol' same ol'...

Advisory- Got all my work done except for my Poe Biography. Which I just finished.

I hope you guys actually read these. Hard to tell when no one comments. Oh well.

I am now offically part of the White Lake Jounior Community Orcestra. I play violin still! Go me!! Lol. Well talk to everyone later...BAII!! :D

INSANE!!

Here's the insane story:

Okay, I was practicing violin and suddenly I was REALLY Hot. So I was like sweating, and I was like, "Jeesh, it's hot." and my teacher was wearing a sweatshirt, and she was like, "What?" Confused because she was cold So we're playing, and suddenly I get really sick to my stomach, so I set my violin down and ask to go to the bathroom, I'm not even sure I can make it because I feel so sick so, I start to walk to go there, and I suddenly begin to black out. I can no longer walk in a straight line, and I'm dizzy and confused. Everything is black, except a partial view out of one eye So I'm freaking out in my mind, while my ears are ringing really loud, and I collapse into a chair, and I sit aginast it, and I'm still in a state of blacking out They're rushing around trying to find out what to do and I'm sweating insanely all over, and I'm zoned out. I couldn't hear anything unless you were up right next to me, talking. I wasn't really thinking anything, just zoned out and so they give me these little gerber gummy things, and some water and my vision comes back, and everything seems to be fine after that

...*Sniff Sniff* =(

Well, I had a chance to go to a party at Susi's Aunt's house, but instead the day before I found a rash on my torso. So I was a little scared, not know what it was from, or what it really was, so I went home.

So, now I found out it's really just a rash from the water at Grace Adventures. Oh well.

Well, gonna go do something worth my wild today I guess.

Baii Baii!

~Jennifer

Thanks Andrew!

Special thanks to Andrew for reminding me about this thinga-ma-gig! ^_^

Well, I'm doing pretty good I guess. I miss school already, and all of my friends. They're awesome. Some pictures of my latest drawings up there. Pretty cool... Well, I've been trying to get ahold of Jackson, but he seems to be gone a lot. ;_; Sad....

Grandma Marsha is in the hospital right now. She's in critial condition, but the doctor said she's slowly getting better. That's the up side. I'm missing her so much already...

Anywho, have a nice day, summer, or whatever you're doing!

<3Jen

Aloha From Jenny!

Boom! New 8th grader in the house! I'm totally rocked for this new year! I get to have some more GREAT teachers! I'm excited! 7th grade teachers were amazing too! I loved them! As an official 8th grader, I'm running for Student Body President! Just like a LOT of our 8th graders...SCARY!

I miss everyone already! I've only seen Susi, and Susi might be going to South Dakota! ;.; Terrible isn't it!? I'm going to hate it. She's my life!

Violin lessons are starting soon. I'm going to rock that violin! I need to start playing my clarinet more often too! Nana says so. It will help my mouth in the long run. Even though it's a clarinet not a Bass, I'll be fine. Same muscles.

Well, gotta run! It's almost 11pm and I'm tired. I need a shower! Love love love love looooove! -Jenny <3

Let's update!

Wow, I really need to pay attention to this more!

Well, the drama show went great! I hope you saw it! I would love to thank the WHOLE cast of "Little Red: Life In The Hood" for doing a great!

Well, it's spring break now! Which is so awesome! I'm glad it's finally here! Tomorrow I have a "Movie Madness" night with some of my friends! It's going to be a blast! I just need to make a few more calls!

I would also like to thank my Science teacher Mr. Calvin Ackley for inspiring my Christan beliefs, and not getting annoyed with my constant questions! Thanks for answering every one of those questions!

Now that spring is around the corner, so is Track! I'm really hyped up for it!! I hope I find out my second event I want to do. All I know right now is Shot Put. I'm sure I can do that. Mrs. Woodbury said I'd be good at Pole Vault. However, that thing looks pretty intimidating! I'm sure I want to do something like that! What do you think??

Well, I finally got on this thing, and now I've got to get off! Nice to blog again though! Bye-Bye!!

~Let's Talk About Vampires~

Is it just me, or does Twilight, New Moon, Eclipse, and Breaking Dawn make girls:

• Search the World for a Vampire (Then beg them to bite her!)
• Throw sparkles on their boyfriends. (Lol!)
• Cry about a BOOK! (I have, and still do.)
• Google Vampires (^_^ Tee-Hee~)
• Finally figure out, they are vampires. (Like me, Alice, and Emmett!)
• Try to figure out what blood taste like. (It's quite good actually.)

Weird isn't it? I am a Vampire. I KNOW I am. I'm Jasper Hale( If you want to know who he is. GO READ TWILIGHT~!) I have razor sharp teeth too~

You dis twilight, Alice, Emmett and I will hunt you down. We WILL change your mind (A.K.A Draw blood until you agree.) ^_^ Thank you for enjoying my amazing VAMPIRE blog.

P.S Go see Brittany's blog! ( www.brittany-vampire.blogspot.com ) Yay~ Lubs~ <3>

Best eva~

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zBSVzoB4H5w

PICTURES!!

Wow I was bored. So I was drawing!~

Amyama. Cutie?

Jasper!!!!!

Suki~

Poems~!

Gotta love my friends for giving me poems. So, why not share them?

Here goes....Nothing?

Raven Smith's:

When She’s not near you
Draw me near
When she is near
I disappear
Your changing for the better
I still wish you never met her
I’m changing too
But I still love you
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
People are changing
People are rearranging
Friendships are lying
Friendships are dying
But one thing I know for sure
You don’t love her!
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Left and right
You always fight
Can’t you stay with me?
Just because she’s pretty
Just because she’s nice
Doesn’t mean she’s right!
I’m the one for you
You’re the one for me
Can’t you see?
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Every time I look you in the face
I see Grace
Every time I look you in the eyes
I wish we didn’t have to die.

Thomas & Jennifer:


Jolly Rancher Suckers
Jolly Rancher Sucks are really great
The taste is pure and sweet
Share some with your mate
Have some to eat!

Your face puckers
Sour but good
It's a great sucker
I know you would
Share

Give one to Tom
He likes them too
They're the bomb!
They are great to Chew

Don't forget to chew
Or you'll choke
Or get the sucker flu!
Drink it down with a coke~

Like I said, they're the best
Share with your friends
Or they won't let you rest
This is the end of our
Sticky Yummy
Mess

Bravos! No? I love her poems. Truly inspiring~

Here are some quotes from random people. Thomas, Brittney, Raven, and I.

Quotes, by the best!:
Thomas Stoneman:

Open up your eyes, see like me. Open up your plans, and your free!


With every new trouble comes a new pain, but after awhile your just blank. Nothing to feel or say.

Jennifer Walker:

Love the hated. Help the Lost. Kiss the tears. Enjoy the smiles. Pick up the pieces. Solve the Puzzle.....

Hugs and drugs. Aren't they both addicting?

The brain is a wonderful organ. Starts working when you wake up, and stops when you get to school.

A smile is worth a million tears.

Writing: The opposite of wronging on paper!

Brittney Wise:

Isn't it ironic? We adore those who ignore us, and ignore those who adore us.

Isn't it ironic? We hurt those we love, and love those who hurt us.

Twilight: My anti-Drug.

One day you'll wake up and say, "Wow, she really did love me." And I'll be waking up with the man who already knew.

I love all of these. Very true (Especially the Twilight one~) Well, hope you enjoyed~! Buh-Baii~!

Drama!!!!

Has it truly come?! Can you be serious beyond all?! It has!! I have tried out for Drama and my results come in tomorrow!!! I'm soooo excited! I'm almost hopping up and down in my chair. If I don't make it, I won't be too happy though. I'll just raise my chin, and deal with it I guess. I can always try again next year. When I'm a blazing 8th grader! Can you believe it's so close? I'm quite shocked myself. Any who, have a great day! Wish me luck!

Hart Public Libary Is An Adventure~

It's Jennifer posting from the Hart Public Library again (HPL)! I just walked (What seemed a mile) though snowing and blowing and ice! It was cold, and my back hurt from my bag full of books! I'm dying for a Red Pop right now! That stuff is Good~!

Well yesterday I learned my lesson. Never, ever ever, wrestle with Evan. Lolz. I ended up with a jammed finger, that I swear it broken!! It hurts A LOT! Nana said it proably needs to be pulled. I told her she was crazy if she thought I was going to pull on a finger that hurt like heck when you didn't touch it! She's so silly~ Any who, this stupid computer has a timer on it! A T-I-M-E-R. Lolz. I have 1 hour 46 minutes and 39 seconds left. They let you stay on the computer for 2 hours. Crazy people.

I have Math and Social Studies homework today. Which, I guess isn't that bad. The math is challenging, but not hard. And Social Studies is boring old labeling the map. I don't understand WHY we need to know about country names. Right now we're labeling Africa. Their countries names are awesome. Like "Zimbabwe"! That's sweet! Ours are boring. "MT Kilimanjaro" or the "Appalachian Mountains". You tell me which one is better.

Rock Band II is amazing! The songs rock, and they're challenging but fun. (Unlike Math. Lolz) Well, I should probably get off and do my homework. Darn...... Syanora! Hola! Baii!

Another One?!

Yay! Another Snow day! Two snow days in a row~ Maybe three if I'm lucky? I hope so, I love long breaks! My break is being extended, but I guess so are my school days if this keeps up. O.O OMG! That means no Drama!! No! School must come back!!! Quickly!!!!

Well, this was a short post. Nothing was really going on. The thin sheet of glassy ice that covers our drive way is VERY dangerous though. I'm afraid to walk down that hill. I'll fall!!! Oh well....here goes nothing?

School's Back in Session!

No! School has brutally snuck up on me! I hate it when it does that! Well, anyways, I had a great Christmas! I got so many things, I know when I tell people what I got I always forget one, but here it goes!

1. Wii
2. Rock Band II
3. Camera
4. Memory Card
5. Bracelet maker
6. Fall Out Boy CD (Thank you Remington!!!)
7. Practice for Beauty school (I'll get to explaining that soon~)
8. $30 (Thanks Uncle David and Aunt Linda)
9. A cute areopostel shirt!
10. A Burgundy sweat shirt (It's zip down, I needed one!)
11. 3 Manga books (The Last of the Fruit Baskets series!!!)
12. A 'Teen Bible'
13. A learn Japanese interactive CD Rom
14. A Japanese Language Map! (Lolz)

Did I miss any????? Those numbers make me look spoiled. Lolz~

Beauty School Practice

Okay, I said I got "Beauty School Practice" for Christmas. Well, I practiced on Nana for Collage! (It's a while away, I know. Lolz) I did her make-up and her hair for the (Late) Christmas party at Grandma Marsha's house. It was fun, and I did a pretty good job! Then, Evan and I came back a little early from the party. We went to our house and played Rock Band II (It's amazing!) While we went up the hill and what not, there was a thin sheet of clear glassy ice. Evan fell flat on his back, and I managed to grab myself before I fell. Nana fell too, when she got out of the truck. So I gave her a pedicure and a massage to sooth her aches. It's 5:20 am, so I hope she can sleep well.

*******THIS JUST IN********

I just got a call from my Uncle Don (He Lives Next Door~) I have no school today! However, I'm dressed, and showered. I was already! And I didn't have school. Doesn't that suck? That's horrible!!! I was perfectly up. Tomorrow I won't be able to get up. I need showers to wake me up. Lolz.

Well I hope to see you all soon! If I don't have school, I'm not staying up!

****Nitey Night****

The Drama Of Dances

Well, I went to the X-mas dance not to long ago. It was, fun. A lot of drama going on obviously. Well, on the last song. It was a slow song. Called 'Love Story' by Taylor Swift. (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KlbB7qt6v_0) It's a really sweet song.

Anyhow, Jackson asked me to dance. I didn't want to be mean, and it was the last song. So I danced with him. He was dancing wrong because I wrapped my arms around his neck, and he did the same to me. ^.^ However, I didn't want to embarrass him, so i kept it quiet. Well, we were dancing, and talked about random things, to keep it less awkward.

We talked about how our friends were totally enjoying all of it. I sang a little to the song. It was nice though. He was really sweet to me today. Except Stacey was making fun of us, so I ignored her all day.

Ping~!

Ehh...^.^'

Ehhh, Hi. ^.^' I have nothing to say really important. I just noticed my blog is pretty blank. Lol. Sooo, yea.

Topic #1:

Susi
Yay! Susi comes home tomorrow! I'm so excited! Yayyyyy! I miss her sooo much! Nana said I talk to her, and about her so much if she was a guy, She would think we were dating. Lol. It was quite funny. But I realllyyyy do miss my B.F.F.L.A.D! (Best Friends For Life And Death) She always keeps me from boring weekends! My weekends have been blank and boring after she left. Lol

Topic #2:

Meap
Meap. Oh dear. Lol, I actully enjoied the English part of the Meap. But the Math one sucked! I almosted died from Math over-dose. Lol, but lucky the Math only has 1 part. English had 6. Haha. Most of the English part was really short though. ^.^ So I can't wait until next year, when we do the Science Meap too! ^.^ YAY!

Topic #3
New Favorite Song

Here is my NEW favorite song! I looove it! <3>

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MzLVFn2vTbA

Enjoy! <3>

Who were you?

Who were you in a pass life? Find out here:

http://www.the-n.com/quizzes/quiz_main.php?id=3414

Here was my result:

You might've been a passenger on the Titanic.
You have an inner strength and calmness that could have developed during a traumatic past life experience. You seem very protective of the people you love, and you'd do anything to keep them safe from harm. Maybe you were a child's nanny on the Titanic, and your only thought after the ship hit that iceberg was to get the baby onto a lifeboat. If you stay focused in the face of danger, it could be because you developed that ability a hundred years ago on the open sea.

Writer's Block!!

Okay, This is a section from my story, and I'd like you to tell me what could happen next. Here we go:


“Well, after my divorce, I’ve been lonely. Except for the school kids, but I didn’t feel like I was actually talking. Connecting. You know what I mean?” Annette nodded. After her father’s death, it was hard for her to connect to the world. To anything that was dead, or alive. At school she walked the halls like a ghost, public wasn’t somewhere she went anymore. “Been there, done that.” She smiled. Mr. Ackley gave a sympathy smile.

So, what do you think she sould say/do or he should say/do?

My new blog!!

Wanna get caught up on my Stories? Go to www.jennifers-stories.blogspot.com !!!! There all going to be there. PLEASE PLEASE check it out! It's reeeallly cool!

....Erm.....

Okay, why am I posting? Heh, I don't know. I'm just bored. Well I have a story too. Here it goes:

Okay so I am struggleing to get my stuff into my backpack so I can go home. Sarah couldn't open her locker, so I helped her. So Sarah, Jackson, and Me were walking to the bus. And we are about in view of the bus, and it leaves! Not cool!!! So we head over to Jackson's and use the phone. It just happens to be the one day I forget my phone! So we get there, and I'm on the phone trying to get ahold of Uncle Don, and Sarah is getting the "Grand Tour" So then I have to go to the bathroom. I hear the phone ring, and it's Uncle Don. Sarah talked to him so, I dunno what he said, but he was NOT happy. So we had a silent ride for a little. Until I decided to be the first to make the move. So I said "Sorry." I think he thought I said "Hi." So, yea. So we get home, and I say "Thanks." Sarah didn't say ONE thing the WHOLE time! It was kinda funny though. So yea.... Good story? ^_^

7th grade made a shocker happen!!

Okay, 7th grade is cool. But what I really want to say is my new favorite subject is......MATH!!! Weird? Maybe it's just the people in my class. Only 13 kids!! Holy crap!

Thomas ( crush of mine ) Sits next to me. Sam (BFF) does to. Jennifer P. (BFF) sits in front of me. And Trica (BFF) Sits in back of me! Cool huh?

Well, I think people stopped coming to my blog cause I stopped posting for a bit. WELL COME BACK!!!! 1 week of not posting doesn't mean I died!

Ba-Dum Ba-Dum

( That's just a cool picture, it has nothing to do with the topic.)



Ba-Dum....Ba-Dum....Ba-Da-Da-Da!!!! Here it is!! School is tomarrow! And me, your favorite 7th grader, is pumped and ready to go!! Nana will be gone for 4 week though, so we might be with aunt Loni. I'm not tottaly sure.





Today we went to Uncle David's house. It was fun. I went swimming, and played somthing like football with Ben. Julia has changed quite a bit, and so has Madilen (Is that how you spell it?)





I'll tell you how my first day of school went afterwords! So I'll BTYL (Blog To You Later) Ta Ta For Now! 0.~





-Jenny

My Image

I made this picture, well kinda. I printed it off the computer as a black and white picture. I colored it, and added quite a few lines too.

I think this is the best on yet!! Please comment! Tell me what I could do to it, or just say it's WONDERFUL!!! Ha ha ha!

Love ya guys,

Jennifer

I found this. It's cool!!! And True!!! ^.^

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Video!

I made this Video on my new laptop!! It is total randomness but total awesomeness too!!!

New Laptop!!

My new laptop came in today! (Obviously I'm on it right now) It's soooo cool! ^.^ Except my messages don't want to download -.- Oh well. I'll get it. It's hot pink (My favorite Color) ^.^!! Only it's a Dell.

Thomas said he's getting an Apple. Are those cooler? I dunno. But they have a built in web cam. ^.^

I've noticed no one has been checking this lately. (Or not Commenting.) I love it when you do. so please do. Even if the comment is "No Comment" lol!

Well I'm going to work on this some more. Bye Bye! ^.^

This is my theme Song!

This is a lovely song! And it's my Theme!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GZUe0ihXfM4

Girls.

This is true!!

When a Girl is quiet ... millions of things are running in her mind.When a Girl is not arguing ... she is thinking deeply. When a Girl looks at u with eyes full of questions ... she is wonderinghow long you will be around.
When a Girl answers ' I'm fine ' after a few seconds ... she is not at all fine.When a Girl stares at you ... she is wondering why you are lying.When a Girl lays on your chest ... she is wishing for you to be hers forever.When a Girl wants to see you everyday... she wants to be pampered.When a Girl says ' I love you ' ... she means it.When a Girl says ' I miss you ' ... no one in this world can miss you more than that.Life only comes around once make sure u spend it with the right person....Find a Guy .. who calls you beautiful instead of hot. Who calls you back when you hang up on him.Who will stay awake just to watch you sleep. Wait for the guy who ... kisses your forehead.Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats. Who holds your hand in front of his friends. Who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you. Who turnsto his friends and says, ' That's her!! '

Beautiful.....huh?

Daddy it hurts

>>>>
My name is Sarah
>>>> >>>> >>>> >>>>
I am three,
>>>> >>>> >>>> >>>>
My eyes are swollen
>>>> >>>> >>>> >>>>
I cannot see,
>>>> >>>> >>>> >>>>
I must be stupid
>>>> >>>> >>>> >>>>
I must be bad,
>>>> >>>> >>>> >>>>
What else could have made
>>>> >>>> >>>> >>>>
My daddy so mad?
>>>> >>>> >>>> >>>>
I wish I were better
>>>> >>>> >>>> >>>>
I wish I weren't ugly,
>>>> >>>> >>>> >>>>
Then maybe my mommy
>>>> >>>> >>>> >>>>
Would still want to hug me.
>>>> >>>> >>>> >>>>
I cant do a wrong
>>>> >>>> >>>> >>>>
I cant speak at all
>>>> >>>> >>>> >>>> >>>>
Or else im locked up
>>>> >>>> >>>> >>>>
All day long.
>>>> >>>> >>>> >>>>
When im awake im all alone
>>>> >>>> >>>> >>>>
The house is dark
>>>> >>>> >>>> >>>>
My folks aren't home
>>>> >>>> >>>> >>>>
When my mommy does come home
>>>> >>>> >>>> >>>>
I'll try and be nice,
>>>> >>>> >>>> >>>>
So maybe ill just get
>>>> >>>> >>>> >>>>
One whipping tonight.
>>>> >>>> >>>> >>>>
I just heard a car
>>>> >>>> >>>> >>>>
My daddy is back
>>>> >>>> >>>> >>>>
From Charlies bar
>>>> >>>> >>>> >>>>
I hear him curse
>>>> >>>> >>>> >>>>
My name is called
>>>> >>>> >>>> >>>>
I press myself
>>>> >>>> >>>> >>>>
Against the wall
>>>> >>>> >>>> >>>>
I try to hide
>>>> >>>> >>>> >>>>
From his evil eyes
>>>> >>>> >>>> >>>>
Im so afraid now
>>>> >>>> >>>> >>>>
I'm starting to cry
>>>> >>>> >>>> >>>>
He finds me weeping
>>>> >>>> >>>> >>>>
Calls me ugly words,
>>>> >>>> >>>> >>>>
He says its my fault
>>>> >>>> >>>> >>>>
He suffers at work
>>>> >>>> >>>> >>>>
He slaps and hits me
>>>> >>>> >>>> >>>>
And yells at me more,
>>>> >>>> >>>> >>>>
I finally get free
>>>> >>>> >>>> >>>>
And run to the door
>>>> >>>> >>>> >>>>
Hes already locked it
>>>> >>>> >>>> >>>>
And I start to bawl,
>>>> >>>> >>>> >>>>
He takes me and throws me
>>>> >>>> >>>> >>>>
Against the hard wall
>>>> >>>> >>>> >>>>
I fall to the floor
>>>> >>>> >>>> >>>>
With my bones nearly broken,
>>>> >>>> >>>> >>>>
And my daddy continues
>>>> >>>> >>>> >>>>
With more bad words spoken,
>>>> >>>> >>>> >>>>
'Im sorry!', I scream
>>>> >>>> >>>> >>>>
But its now much to late
>>>> >>>> >>>> >>>>
His face has been twisted
>>>> >>>> >>>> >>>>
Into a unimaginable shape
>>>> >>>> >>>> >>>>
The hurt and the pain
>>>> >>>> >>>> >>>>
Again and again
>>>> >>>> >>>> >>>>
O please God, have mercy!
>>>> >>>> >>>> >>>>
O please let it end!
>>>> >>>> >>>> >>>>
And he finally stops
>>>> >>>> >>>> >>>>
And heads for the door
>>>> >>>> >>>> >>>>
While I lay there motionless
>>>> >>>> >>>> >>>>
Sprawled on the floor
>>>> >>>> >>>> >>>>
My name is Sara'
>>>> >>>> >>>> >>>>
I am three,
>>>> >>>> >>>> >>>>
Tonight my daddy
>>>> >>>> >>>> >>>>
Murdered me

Skyler

Skyler is here, it's 8:07 in the morning, and the thunder sounds like a giant crash. So it's hard to sleep. Even though it's 8:08 (now) it's dark outside. So I'm really bored, Sarah stole my cord, so my puter is going to turn off. So bye.

Drama Camp

It's tons of fun! Well Sometimes.... Our teacher makes us do stupid things sometimes. Like do our Private walk while we are listening to music, IN FRONT OF EVERYONE!!!! Um, hello, she just said: "Do something no one has seen you do, It's your private thing." I was like, "Hello, P-R-I-V-I-T-E ring a bell?" Oh, well. Today we are doing mini scene I hope they are fun!!! Blog ya then!

I'm back!!!

Hey Hey Hey (It's Fat Albert!!! Lolz!!)!!! I just got back from 1 week at Susi's house! (*We had a lot to say I guess!! ^.^ *) We had tons of fun!! I know I haven't blogged in a while, but I'm totally back now!!

Phrase

I came up with this while I was in my room just thinking. It's a great phrase, and pretty cute. So here it is:

Kisses and Hugs are like Drugs......................They're Addicting

How did you like it? I just randomly came up with that. That's amazing for me. Well Blog ya later!

-Jenny

Band Camp

It was horrible. I was sick the whole time, and I feel even worse right now! Why is this summer killing me?!?! I'm all sick and crap. I bought a new CD with Colbie Calliet!!!! Woo! She is the bomb! Love you guys!

-Jennifer Walker

Poof, I'm gone....

You wake up. Come to my house, and I'm gone. I'M AT BLUE LAKE!!!!!!!!! WOO-HOO! It's going to be awesome! I'm writeing to you people everyday. Hopefully. ^.^ Wish me luck!

2 blogs!

OK I Have 2 blogs now. this one:
www.jennifer-life-rocks.blogspot.com or the one your at. And:
www.in-love-with-anime.blogspot.com that's a diffrent one. It expresses a lot of my drawing experiences, and the joy of anime!!

TOMARROW TOMARROW!!!!!!!!!!!

IT'S FINALLY HERE! TOMARROW I'M GOING TO BAND CAMP!! I CAN'T WAIT!!!

Count Down!

I'm counting down! 2 more days until band camp! I'm so excited! My clothes are pretty much picked out, so I'm OK on that. I can't wait, I'm sure I'll make lots of friends! I'll be sending letters home too! So be expecting!

Love,
Jenny!!!!

My picture

OK, I drew this on a peice of paper at MY house. So then I asked Nana if she had a scanner. She said "Yes, but I don't know how to use it." I told her I'd figure it out. It wasn't hard to figure out! So here it is! It is a Naruto ninja. The thing around her neck is somthing like a diploma. Only it says you have completed the academy. The funky picture on it is what village she is from. She is from the "Village of the Waterfall" The sign on her shirt (that you can barly see) is her clan. She is from the Uchiha clan. I don't exspect you to know what it is of corse. I am extreamly proud of this drawing. Please exspect more on this ^.^! Love ya guys!

-Jennifer

Band Camp!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I can't wait for camp! It will be AMAZING I'm sure! I'll keep in touch with my family too. I will probly write a letter everyday, OK, maybe not EVERYday. ^.^! I have to take my clarinet instead of my Bass though. -.- Oh well, I'll live. My new irritated throat my get in the way of my playing. I think I'll go test it out right now. Blog ya later!

Kami

Great job. You vist my blog and make Kamryn cry. Oh, your just so nice!

Me!

Here are some Pictures Of Me!!!!!!!!!!!

The Last Dance

The first and the best Dance of my life! I had so much fun. I danced and looked like a guy tho. But it was still fun! I am going to go to a lot of Dances next year! Dance like a guy and Party like a rock star! Woo Hoo!!!!!!!!!!

Another Day, And no Dollar.

Have you ever heard the saying "Another day, another Dollar."? I have and guess what, I go to school and do homework, where's my money? Ha ha. I know we all feel that way. Sometimes I feel that the day is perfect.Well now all of them could be W-O-N-D-E-R-F-U-L! All I need is money! I found my $12.00. It was at Jennie's house. What are the odds of that? OK. Now let's do a quiz. Just for fun. :

Pick your Favorite.

A. Cell Phone

B. Computer

C. Friends

Who is your best friend?

A. My sisters

B. My brothers

C. My nieces

D. My Grandchildren

What scares you?

A. Snakes

B. Spiders

C. People

OK. Now post your answers in comment. 'Kay' ^.^ I hope you picked Niece Aunt Loni!

Poem

NO Nana this is not gonna be "Depressing" *rolls eyes* Sakura in Japan is Cherry Blossom Tree OK here we go:

Sakura Flowers

A Blossom falls

Floats to my hand

is it lost?

is it sad?

Will it die?

Will it live?

I keep it safe

In a Vase

Water it everyday

When I die

I want it there

On my casket

For all to share

By: Jennifer Lee Walker


I hope you liked my "Non-Depressing" poem. It is not even close to good, but it's OK.

The River Again

Hey people!! I'm going to the river today!! I'm gonna see me old friends, maybe. Like J.J I miss him. I haven't seen him in two years!T.J should be quite a bit older too. I also wanna see Kaylynn (Is that how her name is spelt?) too! Hm...I can only imagine the faces. Unless they're the same ^.^' then I kinda messed up. So I'll see ya l8r g8r!

I have chocies

Yay the big "Last Dance" is coming up! May 30th! I have some chocies of guys to ask:

1. Connor Boundy ( The girl who owns Hair port's son)
2. Tom Stoneman (Has a girlfriend though -_-)

Other than those 2 I have many more. But they go to diffrent schools. If they say no I'll go with:

1. Susi (If she goes)
2. Stacey (She is going)
3. Tricia (Idk if she is)

Well that's all for now. TTYL!!! ^.^

HAPPY B-DAY SUSI!

HAPPY 12TH BIRTHDAY SUE! HAVE A GOOD DAY SISTER!

HAPPY B-DAY MEL!

HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY MEL! I LOVE YOU A LOT!!!

BIG BIG NEWS!!!

Tell me do you see that lovely baby? Well guess what! It's all mine! I won! I now am your lovely
Bass Clarient player!!!! YAY!!! I have to ask Mr.T if I bring my clarinet to camp though. Because that's what I majored in. I'm so so so so so so so so so happy!!!!! Thanks for crossing your fingers for me (Aunt Loni)!!!!I am so proud of myself!!!! Thanks agian people!

Bass Clarinet

YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!YES YES YES YES YES!!!!!!!!!!!!! GUESS WHAT! I AM SO EXCITED 'CUA I AM IN THE TIE FOR BASS CLARINET! HE ANONCED THAT MCKENNA, TOM , AND JENNIFER ARE RUNNER UPS 'CUZ HE COULDN'T DECIED! I HAVE TO PLAY FOR HIM TOMMARROW! I CAN'T WAIT!!!!!!!!!!!

Spice,Bass,CD,Poem

Should I have a little more spice in my life? For one life I wanna go goth at school! I wanna like meditate is a corner or something. It'd be fun. No wait. I'm going Girly-Girl!! Make-up and stuff! It's gonna be fun! Starting tomorrow. Wish me luck!

Oh and I don't get bass. Wanna know why. 'Cuz I blanked on the scale. I didn't know it at the moment but now i do. Stupid right. Oh well. Clarinet is OK.

I got a new CD too! It has 32 songs!! Cooly-o right!

I wrote a new poem too! Ready here we go!:

Suicidal

I walk in to the water

My mind screaming

"DIE DIE DIE!!"

I walk farther

"I hate my life!"

Die...Die...Die

I fall under

The undertoe taking me

I fly under

Screaming

"Bad idea"

Black

I wake to black

"NO!"

I cry

"One more chance"

Light begins to show.

I walk to it

I fall in to a sleep

I wake on the beach

"Thank you."

A voice replies

"Everyone needs a second chance."

I smile

I walk home.

By:Jennifer Walker

^.^ hope you liked it! Please comment too!

The "Kody Hypothisis"

Ok first Hypothisis is a guess in case you don't know. So here is my hypothisis( You might care you might not):

Kody and Jaki(Rolling eyes) Were going out. But I went to kody's blog and the whole thing about him loveing her and him being her girlfrend was gone. Deleted. Do you think they broke up? Please tell me your answer TTFN!

Bored Bored Bored

I am bored outta my mind! Well. Kinda. Nana had surgery like 2 days ago. She's still in pain. I still haven't done Bass Clarinet Try-outs. DANG!!!!! WEll TTYL!!

Poem

Forgotton Angel

I sit here crying

My arms around my knees

Listening to you call

I can't call back

Even though I want to

I stand up

I need to yell back

I fall

My back heavy

With what?

Wings.

I cry some more

I can't call

Can't escape

Darkness all around me

You stop calling

I flinch

Alone for real now

Help

Help

HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Darkness slowly devouers me

I am forgotton

A alone Angel

A forgotton Angel


By: Jennifer Walker

Hope you enjoyed it!! Please coment!!!

Bass Clarinet!!!!!

Oh my gosh!! I'm so close to Bass Clarinet auditions!! After tomorrow it is Bass Try-outs!!! Ya!! I'm so excited! Did you cross your fingers last time? <(^.^)> just checking! ,,X <-- crossing fingers

Sarah

OK, Nana. Before you get all mad because I'm writing about my sister think. This blog is supposed to get my feelings out right? OK. Sarah has really been bugging me. It seems like I never get a chance to defend myself. She's always there going "No. No. Lie" It bugs the heck outta me. When i play by my self she goes "Can I play? What are you doing? You look dumb jumping around doing nothing." I just wanted to fill this up saying my side of the story.

New Crush again?

I found out I love
No comments:

Bass Clarinet

Hey, I tried the Bass Clarinet yestertday and the day before. It is so sweet! It is big but not to big and it plays really deep but pure sounds. I love it!! I hope when it comes to adudition that I get to play it. It would be so fun!! I hope. Cross your fingers for me!

This is how I've been feeling lately. Lonely. I feel alone a lot quite a bit since spring break ended. I dunno why. Maybe It's cause I miss Kody. Maybe I have a little jealousy from his girlfriend Jacki. I have to admit I'm jealous, but I also must say that we have to move on. I need to find someone else to love. Someone else in my school. I doubt this will be easy, but love is a deck of cards. I must say I am no good at cards. Maybe I just need to get away for a week or so. I don't have a place to go though. Wait. Uncle Rob's!! Oh my gosh!! I could stay 2 weeks at Uncle Rob's go to school at Orchard View Middle School for two weeks!! That would be so cool! I doubt Nana and Uncle Rob would let me. I wish that could happen. Just maybe.....

Comfert Inn B-Day

Ya!!! Today I get to go to Comfort Inn for Sharon's B-day party!! We're going swimming!! It's going to be awesome.For a present I got her a Romeo and Juliette Manga book. She is into Mangas and Animes like me!! That's pretty cool.I only have 2 friends that are into Mangas and Animes like me. Susi Simon and Sharon Chandler. Wow. Oh well TTYL!!!! ^.^

CPR class

I started CPR class last Thursday!! Yay!! It's actually kinda scary. I really think kissing a doll is weird but practice make perfect right? Well it's still fun. I get an American Red Cross card for being certified after the classes too!! Yay!! I hope it is even better next time! I get to do real CPR on a dummy!! Ha Ha. Kinda weird?? Oh well!! TTYL

I'm happy today!!

Hello! It's your happy favorite little girl Jennifer! So what's up all people reading this?? I'm very happy today. Which is good, I think. ^.^!! You like that face? I love it!! It's the happy sign in animes!!^.^!! Well have a marvelous day!

Love,
Jennifer ^.^

Tired Out

I'm never gonna get over this. I get up and have to go to school. Well. I don't wanna go to school for extra hours and another day. It's pure craziness! I wish I didn't have to go. I know enough right now to live on with life. Oh, well. I have to go on with it anyways. *Sigh* I hope I can survive.

Bubbly, awesome song

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2PWfB4lurT4 most of u might know this one!

Kody and my song.......

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q8Hl-em8Azo

Daddy's Day

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Woy7aq0dwNc

A Test, do you really know me?

Hello party people! I'm making a test I want you to take.OK. Here are the questions. ( I hope your ready)

1. What is my Favorite animal?
2. What is my Favorite color?
3. What is my favorite word phrase? ( Tough)
4. What is my favorite outdoor activity?
5. What's my Favorite kind of book?
6. Who do I have a crush on?
7. Who's my B.F.F.L.A.D??
8. Who's my favorite GUYfriend?

OK now that you have taken the Quiz, Right down your answers in comment. I will check everyday for new comments and I will comment you Quiz score. OK Thanks for taking the Quiz!!!

Kadee

OK. I don't know why but I have gotten to I would so much rather hang-out with Kadee than any other of my friends! She has been such a sweet-heart to me! I stared to cry because Nana got mad because I wouldn't try to swallow a piece of candy because my mind kept saying, " Your going to choke! Don't swallow! Way too dangerous!" So I went and bawled on the window seat. So Kadee came up to me and says " What's wrong Jenny?" I wanted to say oh, dear Kadee nothing but I couldn't stop crying. So I lifted my head ( kinda) and she moved towards me and gave me a kiss! I was like "aw!" She smiled the biggest smile right then! When I get home today ( I'm at the Hart Public Library ) I am gonna play with her like crazy! Ahhhh. She makes my day just thinking about her!

Love this!

http://ak.imgfarm.com/images/fwp/myfuncards/LoveDating/lg/7190.swf?copy=Copyright%20©%202005&color=0

Random Blogging

I love pink! It is so awesome! Hot pink and black! Best combo! I'm random blogging cause I'm bored. Likr always. Wanna see my signature Pic? Here we go :
<( . . )> Cute huh! It's a kitty! I also like these :

1. T_T
2. <( ^_^)>
3. O_0
4. ~( - _-)~
5. <-(x_x)->
6. <(OO)>

Cute huh! Well all done Random Blogging!

Things bummin me out

1. THE EASTER EGG THING BELOW DOSEN'T WORK!!!!!!!!!!!!!
2. I CAN'T SWALLOW PILLS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
3. NANA STILL IS TRYING TO SHOVE PILLS DOWN MY MOUTH!!!!
4. I AM VERY BORED A LOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
5. I FORGOT ALL OF MY HOMEWORK FOR SCHOOL AT HOME!!!!!
6. WE HAD A BAND TEST IN BAND, I FORGOT MY CLARINET!!!!
7. KODY ISN'T TALKING TO ME MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
8. SUSI GETS MAD EASILY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
9. I CAN'T WIN THIS GAME OF LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Pills

I have to take pills for my acne. It is hard to even practice because I think of all the times I threw up before. So I began to cry and cry idk why but I did. Then Nana got mad because I said I can't do it, now Mary West ( my doctor ) will be mad too. Sigh. I just can't win can I?

Boy

Dear boy,
I do not know who you are or were or when we will meet, But i do hope it is soon. I pray that we will meet and fall in love, you will love me for me. Not because i am thinner or prettier. I hope u won't compare me to other s who have brighter smiles.I hope you will make me laugh take care of me if i get sick, and be trust worthy. I hope u will remember i prefer Roses to Daises. And my favorite color changes with my mood. Please know my eyes aren't blue they are gray with flecks of navy.Please know i might be too shy to kiss you first,But please don't be afraid to kiss me first. I won't slap you or push u away I'm sure your kisses will be perfect. When we go on a date don't stress about were to go, Because it doesn't ,matter as long as i am with you.Please tell me if something i do bothers you and be honest with me.I hope you don't think i am asking too much of you. Every relationship is a new of cards......and......(sigh).........I have never really been good at cards. But i will try my best.Thanks for listen; this is all i ask.

Thanks,
Jennifer

OK i got that from "Chicken Noodle Soup For The Teenage Soul" I love that book. But this "Letter" makes a lot of sense and matches me perfectly!

attention

ATTENTION! PLEASE I NEED YOUR ATTENTION! EVAN IS REALLY WEIRD! ha ha ha ha! I just wanted to say that 4 fun!

Coments

I would really like it if people commented. I have people reading these and not commenting. I would like it if you did. Please and thank you!

Selem

ok i just wanted to say that before you got on. Now i want to say i love you x 35465756748678+1 ha ha! I miss you times numbers that don't exsist. Do you have a E-mail other than Myspace? I do. I have 2. yahoo and hotmail. Well vist this blog any time! ~xoxoxox~

Selem

Hi selem I love you~

Change

I changed my mind. I am gonna stay on. To bored to get off. Wanna know some thing really stupid? The H.P.L will only let you on the computer 1 a day! How dumb is that? I really don't understand it. Me and Stacey got in a huge fight today. It was a dumb one. She said i was really immature! And i said she was more immature than me. and then she was like well at least I am not stupid. I told her right then, "I only act that way because stupid things are funny" Then she glared at me for quite some time. Then Susi ( A.K.A life saver ) pulled me away from her before Stacey got really mad. I don't like Stacey any more. I hope you read that Kody. I HATE her. She is such a jerk! Like Kody said " A bossy, boy-desperate, freak!" I agree finally! Finally i agree that she is a E-V-I-L !!!!!!!!! Well TTFN oh and i almost forgot i applied for Camp Blue Lake scholarship today! Don't worry Nana I don't have to go if you don't want me to go. The man could only be here today so, i applied. He said if your parents say "no" then just throw away the thing you get in the mail, that's it, no calling, and they won't call you. Now TTYL

Manga books!

Manga books rule! Guess what! THE H.P.L ( hart public library) HAS THEM! I ALWAYS COME HERE FOR THEM! I just got Kingdom Hearts Chain Of Memories and Manga The Complete Guide. I haven't read them yet but i so can not wait! I am still time here. I have until 4:30 when Nana gets here. It is only 3:45 right now. Bored bored bored! Heh. I wonder if Sarah and Evan are as bored as I am? They're both here. Sarah is mad that I told Evan he could come. HELLO! IT IS A PUBLIC LIBRARY! *sigh* Aunt Loni also said Evan could come any time without telling her as long as we were going too. LEARN SARAH! and Nana thinks she is a angel. HA! I CAN PROVE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OK. I am way too hyper. I am going to get off soon. TTYL!

Hello!

Hello all! I am at the Hart Library right now. So I decided to get on the computer and mess around with my Font. I have a doctors anointment so I have Tons of work. Nana asked me to get the work for tomorrow.....I now regret getting it. Ha ha. Kamryn is so adorable! I love her! I am still kinda afraid to hold her. I feel bad when babies cry! I don't wanna take take the chance of her crying in my arms. I feel really bad when that happens.I really don't know why. Well, that's why I will not hold her Aunt Loni. *grin grin* Well Blog you later!

James and Mel, SUPERMAN!!

Hatchet

We watched this really bad movie called hatchet. There was extrema totally over reacting blood in it. Brian ( the boys name) killed a bear with a stick and blood squirted out like a water fall. And the dead pilot in the plane that crashed in the water hand no more eyes so you could see the pupil cords waving in the water. And his skin was being eaten by fish. It was gross. Don't watch it if you have a chance!

Boys

We know 'em. We love 'em! But can we understand them? Most of us can't, but some of us do. I have a lot of best GUY friends and they are #1!!!! But when it comes to love, all comes crashing down!

Photos

This girl makes everything perfect.

This is a beautiful girl, but like some people on earth her lonleyness drags her into being dark and depressed.

Best friend

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BAfu2MBYEew this is kinda dedicated to all of my guy friends! Enjoy!

This is my papa. I miss him so much. This was his b-day party. He died from canser 2 years ago. Canser used to be a least consern of mine, but now when it killed him, it is like a feirce demon I must deafet. I miss hm so much. If you can't feel my pain pretend your father died right now! You would care! You would cry! That's how I feel! Canser murdered my father! He's dead! He can't see all of my conserts in my band, my birth days, my drama play, he is missing all of my life. I still remember my last words to him. You should cry about these words. They were "I love you Papa" I'm glad those were my last words. Treat your parents like the will die tomarrow. Do you want your last words to be "I hate you!"?

Jelosy

Ever been jelous of someone? I have, many, many times. Someone who is prettier, smarter, liked more, your crushes girlfriend, your best friend? It all hurts. Most of the time it seems like it shouldn't. But it dose. My jelouly is raging from someone Kody said to be his " best chick-friend ever". That hurt. I didn't know why though. Mabey because I seemed to be fadeing from his best buds photo? Or his move caused far away frendship problems? I don't know what, but we all know it hurts.

My best friend

Hey this is my best friend Jessica! She is really girly but I don't care at all! Me and her a kinda diffrent actully. But we never ever leave one another in hope of nothing. She is always there unlike Some people! Who turn to me and say so what? Or your prob. Deal with it. All those people who leave the alone in the dust someone should show them wat it is like! I've been alone a lot. Guess who was there for me? Jessica, a true friend!

My cosin, Nana's party

Hey wats up. I went to nana's b-day party last night. I was partie'n until 11:40!! It was awesome! Now my cosin Cherokee is here. And My uncle chris, and my Aunt Sam are her too. They brought guitar hero 3 for the wii and the wii! I was play'n Ledgend of Zelda Twilight princess for wii. It was AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!

Depression

i felt depression for 2 days straght! i hate it so much. Mostly when your friends don't understand your horrible mood.